Running

running
a tree
move left

running
a wall
vault it

running
wall end
down

forward
back

does not
matter

running
bench
over

running
hedge
jump

running
from
towards

does not
matter

as long
I am

running

faster

The Ramble

Well this is a very big post that I have been putting off months from posting. 

WELCOME TO MY NEW PAGE! 

Yes finally I have made a page and yes finally I have started posting in the name of #RoTM (get it trending people)

What better time to do it when I am basically already drowning in work :D 

Yet there is not a better time to do this then now, why?

Well lets start with the story that I have been putting off for so long, that well now its stale. Maybe I wanted it to be stale, maybe I wanted to escape from it, I have been  really running away from it.

I have been posting less on this blog, which was my mode to express myself, and that is because I did not know what to express about myself. I have just changed everything about me, yes the same old crazy Alex is still here inside waiting to burst out at every opportunity. 

Yet, I failed my degree, after four long years of hard work, gruelling hours of working on countless scientific theorems, learning fact after fact of material that I will now never be able to use. That is what I was thinking the day I found out I had failed. 

I was a failure, it is indeed an interesting feeling,  completely giving up in life, seeing the world as a vortex of darkness. In my head it was all the fault of this year, the dark year I wanted to dub it. Everything was going to go wrong, nothing will work out. 

Then I tried finding a job, guess what no luck. I mean who wanted to hire someone who has failed! Who wanted to find someone to pick up and train to do something. I did get an internship in SiTC, which I am really grateful for, however I knew it was not going to be enough. I needed a plan, I needed to get out of that vortex that was sucking me in. 

Then it started to happen, BOOM out of the blue, I was in ESN Malta, BOOM, I was elected the President, with a wonderfully crazy and energetic team. Head strong and ready to make a change, to make THE change, to rewrite the history of the organisation.

BOOM,

I was hired for a second internship, I am working with Konnekt Recruitment, the door way for me into the world of work. I am learning things which I would have never known before if it was not for Konnekt the people I work with, the environment, it is impossible to feel down in there. No one gives you a chance you always know you can get back up, admit that you did something wrong and keep on working to fix it. That is their mentality and it fills me to the brim with energy!

BOOM

Met new people, met new friends, I feel in love again, so crazily so instantly. Something which I had though I cannot, trusting someone with that spark of magic. Yet I was lost when I met her, the romantic in me gave in, not even a struggle. Yea sure it might not work out, but who knows! 

I am still 22, I am young and crazy, I am resourceful, as some friends put it, Unorthodox, Crazy and Dedicated. Yes that is what I am, some one who is not scared of trying out the new thing, someone who is not scared of being some one else, of working, of accepting his misatakes and moving on. 

Yes I am hard headed and it takes a while to get used to me, some people have personalities, I am a character (again quoting some of my dearest friends who love me so much :D )

Why should I hold myself back and hold back who I am? 

What does that result in?

It results in a lack of happnies from my part, it results in me escaping the reality, which is

I am Alex,

and I love to Ramble, doesn't come frequent, or regular, but it comes when it comes.

SO why was I upset that I cannot form the Facebook page. Because I was not posting enough? 

EVERY day is a story if I choose to share it, because I see the world though my eyes, and my eyes alone and you all see the world though your own eyes. So let us share our stories, some people share their stories though photos, others though speaking.

I Ramble.

SO Ladies and Gentleman, Boys and Girls, PEOPLE of all AGES

I 

GIVE

YOU

RAMBLINGS OF THE MIND!!!!!!!!!!!

Summer: Shooting Stars!

Hey guys, been a while!

Sorry about that, I have been going crazy with all the work I am doing, split up between, a job, working with SiTC (you guys have to come to that this year its going to be epic) and being the President of ESN Malta, well that is one hell of a combination to keep one busy. My days, (I am not complaining note) constitute of me waking up in the morning, showering, biking to work, spend 8 hours sending hundreds of emails, calling people, ect, basically all that I love doing. Then at five in the evening, hell breaks loose, every day I got to go some where else, some meeting or activity, something is always happening and I got to be there for each and every one of them. It is hectic, it is crazy but this makes for one hell of a life style. ( I would recommend it in small amounts)

Anyway, since I do not know how to take anything in small amounts well, I happen to come into someone else's story as well. Yep for once I am not the main protagonist, (WHERE IS ALEX AND WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH HIM) hahahaha, no really I came into someone else's life and my own changed as a consequence of that. We are after all the product of all of our interactions, with others, with our environment and of course with our lives. Growing and learning as well go along. So, after four weeks of this complete and crazy life style yesterday I decided. You know what, I need a bloody break.

What a break it was. My friend who has till now shared with me some of the best memories that happened this summer. Half of them would get me killed, the other half would get her killed. Yep pretty epic stuff, again I digress. (THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I DO NOT RANT ENOUGH UAHIWAIH) So yes, I was a bit down yesterday, worn out really and needed a break from life, so we went to a special place. No WiFi, no 3G, no recption. Just darkness, and starlight. 

Credits of this photo go to Gilber Vancell, I do not (sadly own a good camera yet)

It was amazing, we managed to see Sicily, ( I REALLY want TO GET a bloody Good camera, my phone is so shit at this), and best of all, I got to see sixteen shooting stars, sixteen!!!! That is huge, it was beautiful, there was so much to see, so many stars, that I was just in pure awe. Hours passed and we did not realise. Hugging each other to keep warm, we just sat there, letting the star light, (and the other light beams that are and were a product of the pollution of the some village feasts around the island!!! I mean guys WAY TO RUIN A MOMENT THERE!)

We both forgot our problems and just sat there wondering, how really insignificant we were compared to the great big void, laughing like kids each time that we saw a shooting star, and the other did not. (I did get to see sixteen, she only saw six. Let's just say she was not pleased about my keen observational skills compared to hers. (EKKK I am so dead right now hahaha)

I promise  I will write more often from now on, anyway school is round the corner and really, with my new adventure...damn I still havent written about that have I well. Tonight you will get it I promise!

Thunder

Thunder is some of the most amazing thing, it is just a sound of pure fear, excitement or just wonder. What is thunder, thunder is a sound. Nothing more, a sound that comes after the aftermath of lightning.

It comes after the event, it is the echo of some of the most amazing phenomena that happens. Yet people are scared of it. They are scared of the sound, such a terrific sound, however this sound as strong, as powerful as it is.

It is nothing, compared to what lightning is. All that power, hitting the ground, striking in a flash, a burst of light in an instant transmitting so much power. That chemical reactions happen that do not happen anywhere else. Nitrogen breaks up, organic matter burns, in its wake, nothing can stand nothing leaves unscratched.

Thunder, comes after, the aftermath of this terrible power.

Thunder always comes after.

My greatest Fear. My greatest Passion.

It would be time.

Some fear death or dieing, some fear thunder or lightning, some fear water or darkness.

Yet I fear time, the concept of time I want to reject. Twenty four hours are not enough in a day. Life has become so fast that keeping track has become impossible. The train keeps going faster and faster.

I am writing this while travelling, something which I have taken to do is sleep, write, think, while travelling. Minimise wasting time, my free time I try to do something else. I hate the concept of doing nothing.

Yet I often find myself lost deep in though. Not the first time I am riding my bike to relax. I get deeply lost in my thoughts and wake up else where. I get lost in thinking, finding out about myself, teaching myself though simulations, comming up with solutions to my projects.

Yet I am still scared, Time still terrifies me to no end.

I am not scared of death, or my life ending, I am scared I haven't done enough with it.

So I live life, one step at a time, every corner, every decision is based on my basic instinct. I travel to where I feel I need to be. I open doors and see what they offer learn as much from everything that I do. Even if the smallest thing such as a new short cut on the computer or a brand new out of the box way of thinking about a problem.

I never do the same thing twice, I always change it differently, because it is always a brand new experience.

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The Train.

What is a train, other then a means of transport. Changed the world, allowed us to get there, allowed us to get there faster. Allowed us to connect the world, city to city, village to village. Make people able to get to work faster. Find work faster, get from one place to the other faster.

Faster, faster, faster, faster, fast, fast, fast

Yet we arrived to a point we forgot one important thing, that on the train you have windows. We have a view, be it a city, be it a valley or a field filled with horses. 

We have become so fixated on doing more, arrived at the destination. Making sure that we make it happen the big break. The big event in our life, making money, getting a house, getting a family, raising your kids. Or building your company, building an empire. 

Yet so many of us are forgetting, removing, and abolishing their passions in the process. We forget why we set out, when we arrived at the end. We forgot to look out of the window, we forget to stop at the next stop and taking a look around. Maybe an other train can take us faster, or slower, or from a different route. Maybe we can find a train that doesn't rattle, or we want a train that is rattling. 

So I am telling you, you have to look outside the window. Who knows what is outside?

I never though I would find what I have found yesterday, and I always wonder what will come tomorrow!