The Black Mirror

I have been, blessed or cursed for the past two months. My mobile, smart phone broke down and my laptop wasnt functioning to its best of best capabilities. So I was living with minimal interaction to the online world. With a black mirror facing me at all times.

This does not mean that I still did my best to spend at least 2-3 hours a day on Facebook and gmail replying and promoting events. But today, today I got my phone for the first time. And I think a lot of you realized by the messages spamming across my twitter account, people being called, updates coming on Facebook. The first time I walked to University for two months and did not look where I was walking, the first Time I took out my phone while waiting for a meeting and talked to the phone not to the people around me. The first time that I took a selfi. The first time that looked up something on Google on the spot. The first time that I emailed someone asap. The first time I snapped chatted. The first time I did read the news as it happened. The first time I heard of what was going on instantly.

The the battery went out, just after 3 hours of using my phone, it burning red hot in my hands form it being over used. It was like a drug addict falling right back into his addiction, it was like someone, who took a small breath from sprinting and then realized when he started again, he wasn't used to take a break. It was a shock. I WAS SHOCKED.

Why. well I did not realize I was so attached to the internet as I was, I did not understand or believe someone would need the internet so much in their life. I did not believe how much the world is different, I did not look for and write poems in my head anymore, I speak them out loud to the world around me.

However, my short break from the sprint that my life is has stopped. I need to get back sprinting, if I am to do anything as close to the efficiency that I need. When every minute of my day is planned ahead 2-3 weeks before, when I decide what I need to do and how I need to do it. When I always am tring to do the best thing possible for those around me.

Is this me being sad about how the world has become. No not at all, this world has its beauty in its own self. Its just a small reflection on what has occurred in this world and how much we changed our habits and actions. How we live in a different state of mind and being. This I find to be extremely intriguing and just simply amazing that we have altered our life styles so much. I think what will happen in just five years.

Water!

Running,
Fleeting,

Guided,
Gliding,

Caressing,
Choking,

Breaking,
Building,

Tearing,
Uniting,

Cooling,
Freezing,

Nurturing,
Killing.

#Ramblingagain

Wow haven't talked in a while, and well I have been ignoring you people out there.

So a milestone was achieved and that is 8000 views, that means my rantings were read or at the least started to be read 8000 times. I am seriously worried about you guys, I mean you are listening to the ravings of a mad man. A MAD MAN! Setting jokes aside, this is truly an honor for me, I started blogging simply to find a way to improve my English, and make my sister bulling confined to her tearing apart my earlier pieces to shreds then posting them online.

And now here I am ranting, on and on and on. What will I be ranting about today? Well, that is indeed a question and a half. I started with a reason to write this blog, then remembered that I needed to thank you guys. (In my own fashion of course) anddd now I forgot.  I mean I am still writing, or am I just thinking aloud.

AHH!!!! yes, that's what I wanted to write about. Living life at 100%, how does that feel like? Well I know I cannot tell you that, because I never did, but what I can tell you is the change and shock in sensations I got recently.

So currently I am sick, got the flue no biggie, and was having some trouble breathing, again no biggie the usual right? Well with this happening I went to seek medical attention, and the doctor gave me a crap tone of, well you guessed it. OXYGEN! and some other things along with it, and man that felt GOOD.

My field of vision, doubled, the details I could taken in and process at the same time, grew exponentially. I could see, hear and experience so much. I felt alive, my brain going at a million miles an hour. I was thinking of all the things I could do and not do. Till it passed away, I felt, rather I never felt better.

Frankly I probably didn't feel any different from when I am normal, you know not sick. However, since there was such a short time for the meds to take effect. I swear in 15 minutes I was running and hopping around like a rabbit on crystal meth. That the effect I saw was insane, couple that with a good night sleep, well night and day. I was, I felt indestructible, till time came for sleeping, then I released how shit I actually felt.

Anyhow, so yea that is what has been happening in my life atm. I will write some more soon enough, I got some cool things coming up and I wanna share them with you guys.

Words!

I Dream.
I Act.
I Live.
I Breath.

Yet what ever happens,
When ever I do not

I shut down,
and I write, I write words, not of wisdom,

nor do I write words which are of aid,

I write to shut down,
I write to run,
I write to remember,
I write to believe
I write to keep existing.

The words which are hidden will not be seen,
Yet the words which are seen will not be heard.

I close myself, by opening myself.
I grow, by dieing.
That is what I write.