It would be time.
Some fear death or dieing, some fear thunder or lightning, some fear water or darkness.
Yet I fear time, the concept of time I want to reject. Twenty four hours are not enough in a day. Life has become so fast that keeping track has become impossible. The train keeps going faster and faster.
I am writing this while travelling, something which I have taken to do is sleep, write, think, while travelling. Minimise wasting time, my free time I try to do something else. I hate the concept of doing nothing.
Yet I often find myself lost deep in though. Not the first time I am riding my bike to relax. I get deeply lost in my thoughts and wake up else where. I get lost in thinking, finding out about myself, teaching myself though simulations, comming up with solutions to my projects.
Yet I am still scared, Time still terrifies me to no end.
I am not scared of death, or my life ending, I am scared I haven't done enough with it.
So I live life, one step at a time, every corner, every decision is based on my basic instinct. I travel to where I feel I need to be. I open doors and see what they offer learn as much from everything that I do. Even if the smallest thing such as a new short cut on the computer or a brand new out of the box way of thinking about a problem.
I never do the same thing twice, I always change it differently, because it is always a brand new experience.
Some fear death or dieing, some fear thunder or lightning, some fear water or darkness.
Yet I fear time, the concept of time I want to reject. Twenty four hours are not enough in a day. Life has become so fast that keeping track has become impossible. The train keeps going faster and faster.
I am writing this while travelling, something which I have taken to do is sleep, write, think, while travelling. Minimise wasting time, my free time I try to do something else. I hate the concept of doing nothing.
Yet I often find myself lost deep in though. Not the first time I am riding my bike to relax. I get deeply lost in my thoughts and wake up else where. I get lost in thinking, finding out about myself, teaching myself though simulations, comming up with solutions to my projects.
Yet I am still scared, Time still terrifies me to no end.
I am not scared of death, or my life ending, I am scared I haven't done enough with it.
So I live life, one step at a time, every corner, every decision is based on my basic instinct. I travel to where I feel I need to be. I open doors and see what they offer learn as much from everything that I do. Even if the smallest thing such as a new short cut on the computer or a brand new out of the box way of thinking about a problem.
I never do the same thing twice, I always change it differently, because it is always a brand new experience.
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