Home!

I grew up on an island, in the middle of the Mediterranean. Thinking always the world is confined by the limits imposed by the shore. The great sea, which I was so terrified of, had to be crossed using the ferry, which brought people and took people to another 'land' when the time has come for them.

This all changed when I grew up, when I was 18, although I had gone abroad before, although I had been to Malta the other 'land'. I never really noticed and analysed the situation as I did when I was 18. I left Gozo, the night of my graduation from Higher Secondary, 6th Form, High School. Whatever you call it in your area, anyway. On that night I left on my greatest adventure, I went on my own to America. I an inexperienced traveller, one who was afraid of planes. I a closed minded individual grown in a sheltered environment.

I suddenly and very violently found out, how small Gozo really is, for a moment, and I can still remember this I was breathless, panicking. What the hell was I going to do, what HOW COULD THIS BE!

This changed me, but unlike what would happen in this case, or rather what I thought would happen in this case. I did not shut myself down, suffered though my summer program which was such a stimulating experience in my life. (BFTF - Benjamin Franklin Trans Atlantic Fellowship 2011 Look it up its a wonderful experience and would highly suggest anyone to go and try to take part in it.)

Inside of me, bloomed this desire, a curiosity to find out more about life, to find out the world which I lived in and explore it. Explore this Pale Blue dot which we live on. Since then I have been abroad as many times as I could, I have travelled, I have explored and I have always kept my mind open.

However this came at a price, now when I ever go back to 'Home' I feel suffocated, claustrophobic even.  What has grown in me, has not yet in those I left behind in Gozo, the idea of exploring new ideas, the idea of risking everything just to know more to learn who you are. To find your limits and break them to set new standards.

This is what I discovered, this is what I found, I have no limits, I have no restrictions, apart all those that I set on myself. I have become a person who does what he wants, I follow my dreams and I will do as much as is in my power to achieve these dreams.

Why title this Home? Simple, Home is the biggest limit I had ever set on myself, and I broke this limit and now Home is Earth, not Gozo, not Malta, not the EU. No Home is where the heart lies.

As cheesy as it gets! However this is what I feel and I am not afraid to say it.