The Farce.

I have been trying to write this post for a while, I wanted to get an opinion and an unbiased one. I have given both parties a chance to help me decide. I have given both groups of candidates a chance to impress me, and convince me that I will follow them for an entire year. 

I am a person who has and will always be natural until convinced otherwise. I will always give a chance for someone to explain themselves. Last week I walked into quad, last week, and I felt as if I was walking into Mordor, I could feel the tension and energy building up. I could feel the energy growing, the organisations readying themselves for a battle.

I was disappointed. 

This is a one sided battle, a battle of one army, keeping in line with the Middle earth theme. SDM has delivered a campaign. A campaign aimed at showing what they can do, and what they did. They did a move which many people did not appreciate, but I agreed with full heartedly they pushed forward experience and stability. They gave us the choice of a team which has an all rounded energy. They touched all areas of university, representing those who are usually left out, letting in new groups and new people. While at the same time making sure that the best are there and they offer to serve us for another year.

You all know me, I am a voice amongst a million on the internet. I grumble and I complain, and even though I know it was not my yapping that pushed forward SDM to launch their manifest so much earlier. Yet they did, and since I am just one amongst thousands I felt heard, I felt listened to and respected. It has given me time to go over it at my own pace, and it has given me time to argue with them and discuss with them why, what and how.

I only mentioned one side because the other side is not offering anything new. Pulse have time and time again pushed forward ideas, they pushed forward energy. Yet the ideas are stale, they are short sighted and aimed at generating votes towards them, rather than building a KSU that all students deserve. They are aiming to push forward individual, candidates, using the Vote for me, I AM AWESOME! Tactic.

Being honest, this has been a very hard blog to write, I have been trying to be impartial and push forward an unbiased analysis of what is happening. Yet this is the sixth time that I am writing. I cannot defend a team of unexperienced candidates. They do not know how university works, they do not know how the system functions. They have some strong candidate’s as well, however they still do not cancel out the negativity that is being pushed forward.  

With that said:

There are 1 days left for the elections. So I will challenge both parties to pamper me, not with free beer, smoothies or Nutella goodness. I will ask them to pamper me with arguments, with discussions, about how and what they will be working and implementing in KSU, and above all else, why I should vote for them.

Split

Two,
Two of me exist.

There is Alex,
He is logical,
He is calculated,
He is bright,
He is confident,
He is perfect,

Then,

There is Alex,
He is impulsive,
He is stupid,
He is strange,
He is shy,
He is flawed.

I stand with one on each side,
They take turns,
Who controls me,
Who is me,

Sometimes, Alex takes over,
I shine,

Then, Alex comes to say hi,
I wither,

When I have a moment of clarity,
I can solve any and all problems.

When I feel weak,
I am useless and fall on my knees,

Not moving,
Till I get up.

Then I fly.

They are two,

Yet I am one,
I am made by them.

They are me and I am them,
I am perfectly imperfect.

I wouldn't be any other way.

The Library

The world is one great big library.

A library made of people,

Stories,

In the street,

We meet new ones every day,

We pick and choose,

Most we discard,

Maybe the cover,

Perhaps the paper,

Or even the dust covering everything.

Yet I get this,

Terrifying and dangerous.

NEED

DESIRE

A Greed.

A Greed and need to learn every single one of these people,

Peak inside their book.

Their story.

Friends

A friend?

WHAT is a friend?

someone that we love?
someone that we care for?
someone that we hate?
someone that helps us grow?

Our boss?
Our partner?
Our mates?

No,

A friend if that someone that comes to you,
and shows you who you really are.

A friend is that stranger who walks up to you,
and gives you your life back.

A friend is that someone,
who does not give up in you.

Her

She comes,

She leaves,

Smiling,

Dancing,

Those Eyes,

She talks,

She smiles,

Laughing,

Warm,

That look,

Her is what I want,

Her is what I need,

Yet,

Can't

That feeling,

Her touch,

Her kiss,

I miss,

I desire,

But won't

She came,

She left,

Memories,

Sweet.

Desire.

Love?

We don't love others.
We don't fall in love with others,

No we do no love others to be happy,

We love others so that we in ourselves can,

Might be,

Loved.

We don't fall in love with others,

We fall in love with the concept of love itself,

We don't love to gain something,

We love to lose everything,

We lose ourselves,

We lose our identity,

We give up who we are so that we can,

We might be loved.

Love is nothing but the most selfish act,

Love is the act of,

Giving up who you are,

So that in return,

Maybe,

Someone else gives you their entire selves,

Yet the sad thing,

We still would not love that person,

We would love the idea of them,

We would love the person who we make them to be,

I have fallen in love with the concept of love,

It is the single most terrifying and yet most exiting thing I did,

And I do not regret it.

Yet...

Immortality

I had it,
I was untouchable.

Felt,

I was fearless,
I was confident,

Yet,

I was arrogant,
I thought it would never end,

That,

I had a feeling,
I knew,

But,

I didn't want to believe,
I don't want to believe,

That,

I am in hell,
I am mortal again,

Feeling,

I am weak,
I am hurt,

However,

I have to keep a mask,
I have to look strong,

For,

I am not alone,
I am not the worst,

Why,

I am hurting,
I am in such pain,

Others,

I know are worse,
I know I have no right to,

Complain,

I see pain,
I see misery,

Heartache,

I know is only minor,
I have to be,

Strong,

I have friends,
I know people.

Need that.